As some of you who know me personally may know, I'm coming out of a difficult period of my life. This past month has been a lonely time, and I've been struggling with a lot of sad developments in a couple different parts of my life. Fortunately, due to support from some great friends and advice from wise elders, life is getting a lot better; the sun is coming out again.
Now that the worse is past, I thought it would be a good time to take stock of what happened these past thirty days and see what I can learn from it. You see, I've dug my own pit for a lot of the stuff that's happened lately, and I think the time has come to right some wrongs, make some apologies, and generally just see if I'm any better for what's happened to me recently.
First, what I've learned:
-Respect Other People. I'm very stubborn in that, as Tom Petty puts it, "I see what I want, I go after it." Sometimes, I do this at the expense of other people, their wants and needs, and their feelings. I'd say that this selfish impulse has caused me more trouble than anything else this past month. I think I've finally learned that getting what one wants means nothing if one burns all one's bridges in the process.
First, what I've learned:
-Respect Other People. I'm very stubborn in that, as Tom Petty puts it, "I see what I want, I go after it." Sometimes, I do this at the expense of other people, their wants and needs, and their feelings. I'd say that this selfish impulse has caused me more trouble than anything else this past month. I think I've finally learned that getting what one wants means nothing if one burns all one's bridges in the process.
-Laziness Gets You Nowhere. I've got a naturally lazy personality; if there's any way to make something easier or avoid doing it entirely, my natural impulse is to sidestep work. Unfortunately, this has resulted in me not doing half the things with my life that I'd like to do. I'm resolving, here and now, to not be afraid of good, hard work anymore.
And, finally, I've got two notes to certain groups of people (no names, of course). One's an apology, one's a thank-you. These groups actually overlap a lot, so please read both if you personally know me! (If you don't personally know this, you can skip this part if you want.)
There are a few friends who I think I've hurt this past month, due to my own selfish drives and my disrespectful behavior. I know I can't take what I've done back, but I'm hoping you can find it in your hearts to forgive me and let me have a second chance to be a better friend!
Secondly, I want to thank my friends for being so open and kind to me during these past four weeks. I know it's really tiring to be my friend. (Believe me, I know what it's like for you guys; after all, I live with me.) However, you guys and gals have been nothing but awesome and supportive, through good times and bad. I don't think a fella could ask for better friends!
(Okay, other people I don't know. You can come back now.)
This has been a hard month for me, as I said, but it hasn't been without its benefits. I've been made to feel more grateful for the people in my life and I've learned some things about myself. I won't say I'd want to go through this month again, but I'm glad I went through it once, just to learn (and I'm even more glad it's over!).
And, finally, I've got two notes to certain groups of people (no names, of course). One's an apology, one's a thank-you. These groups actually overlap a lot, so please read both if you personally know me! (If you don't personally know this, you can skip this part if you want.)
There are a few friends who I think I've hurt this past month, due to my own selfish drives and my disrespectful behavior. I know I can't take what I've done back, but I'm hoping you can find it in your hearts to forgive me and let me have a second chance to be a better friend!
Secondly, I want to thank my friends for being so open and kind to me during these past four weeks. I know it's really tiring to be my friend. (Believe me, I know what it's like for you guys; after all, I live with me.) However, you guys and gals have been nothing but awesome and supportive, through good times and bad. I don't think a fella could ask for better friends!
(Okay, other people I don't know. You can come back now.)
This has been a hard month for me, as I said, but it hasn't been without its benefits. I've been made to feel more grateful for the people in my life and I've learned some things about myself. I won't say I'd want to go through this month again, but I'm glad I went through it once, just to learn (and I'm even more glad it's over!).
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